*&I THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD GET EASIER, INSTEAD IT'S GETTING HARDER%$

I have issues. And they bother me. But today I feel I've reached a point and enough is enough. With all the sunshine outside let's shine a more positive light on things! YAAAAY :D I feel like I over-analyze things way too much and I just can't bear anything more. I'm done. I'm fed up. And I feel like just forgetting about it all and move on to the next phase. I'm 100% sure by tomorrow I'm back again where I was at the start of today, but at least right now I have a moment of clarity so let's enjoy it while it lasts!

The Drums album it's good. I enjoyed it lots on my way to school this morning. Especially the song Book Of Stories.



They look so effortlessly cool

I had another evaluation at school today and of course my teacher gave me a 'good'. I already knew from the first day of her class. Already then she came to check up on me and told me oooh good, just keep doing what you're doing, I won't bother you, you're doing great, you're working really well, let's keep it that way! So no surprises here. I'm basically 99% accepted into the full-time bachelor. But of course next week I'll show up with all the things I've made throughout the entire year (!) and of course I'll make a drawing of how to showcase everything and put lots of time and effort in it. Hopefully they'll ask me a lot of questions and really take a close look at my work instead of today. 'Cause today I wasn't even done hanging up all my drawings and finding a nice spot to showcase all the 3D pieces I made. I could have actually stayed at home and my teacher could have sent me an email saying she gave me a 'good' 'cause I know she already knew she was giving me one before the evaluation even started. It's like this all the time. I don't know why me, but I'm not going to think about that. I'll just keep doing what I do and we'll see what it will all lead up to.

Here is a video of the performance I did last week, some find it a bit disturbing

HKU Performance from IanCurtisMinusTheSmoking on Vimeo.

Don't worry, I'm not going out killing girls or myself. And nope, I have not lost my mind either

I'll miss school. I didn't want to leave today and all of my fellow students kept on leaving like they don't care next week is our last class. I'll miss it. I don't want it to end. I want the full-time bachelor to start on Monday! I can't wait. I love the place, I love the people. All these kids are so nice. I'm not the only one who cries :D

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After all this time I still have not finished reading The Fountainhead. I adore the book, but come on, we need to finish so we can start reading The Idiot!!

Tomorrow I'm going to spend my day with a friend, or two. It's gonna be a good day and it might rain! OH YEAH :DDD